December 03, 2010

Breast Cancer?

It's been a little while since I last posted. Unfortunately, life and school have taken precedence, leaving very little time for writing or blogging. Right now, I am in the middle of exams and a health scare.

For those of you that are new to my blog, I found several lumps in my breast last year. At the time, they decided I would be closely followed, but that I didn't require a biopsy. About a year and half later they've now decided they want to biopsy it. This news came about a month ago.

I had the procedure a couple of weeks ago and am waiting on the results. I know from the ultrasound-guided biopsy that the lump they're concerned about is for sure not a cyst so I'm a little panicked. I guess you could say I've been on an emotional roller coaster waiting to find out if I have cancer or not. It isn't something I'd wish on my worst enemy. I've lost a significant amount of drive lately. I sit in traffic and think, "Wow. I just wasted an hour of my life.' Needless to say, I have cut a lot of nonessentials out of life just because I feel as if life is too short to do anything I don't want to do. I'm hoping I get over this because I have a feeling my marks in school are going to suffer. The only thing I want to do right now is spend time with my family and write.

Although I know the chances of my having cancer are slim, it doesn't make me feel better. When I asked for a mammogram a few years ago my doctor blew me off because she said I was too young. And yet, here I am with a small mass that needs to be investigated. Lucky for me, I do self breast exams. Finding the lumps made my doctor take me seriously. I encourage you to do the exams yourself. Be your own health advocate. Sorry, I don't mean to preach. But, I do want to mention I had a male patient two weeks ago that had breast cancer. You don't have to be a girl to get it. It doesn't discriminate.

So, the next time I blog I will be crying, either because I'm elated or scared. Hopefully, it'll be the former.

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